BLG 06
As I write this I see no reason why should I reveal this
side of mine on public internet…I mean most of the people whom I know tend to
keep their personal life to themselves…they hardly let anyone venture into the
depth of their emotions or manners…but then…I even know that someone out there…some
random person who will read this will somehow understand that what I go thru…that
random person will feel each and every word that I write…
I’m facing a particular fear that I’m all alone in this
world with the one and only genuine feeling that I have. Sometimes it becomes
so frustrating that I have that immediate urge to go and punch someone out of
sheer desperation…its controllable...Yeah…but it doesn’t seem to appropriate to
give it much of a thought that time…I fear losing my sanity to loneliness… I don’t
know if I’m falling short of handing any relationship in a good way…I had this
very good friend of mine who was very close to me…one day he got a girlfriend
and he changed…and then the mutual feelings just departed…I felt the same way
with many other people…
My not being bright in academics or my straight forwardness…or
then is it my messed up family problems! What is feeding my fear of being alone…?
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